I grew up in a Christian home, went to church every Sunday, attended Sunday school, youth group, and I accepted Christ at a very early age. For years, it was Enough for me to simply be involved in the church, pray at meals, and wear “W.W.J.D” bracelets.
But over time, it wasn’t enough; it didn’t sustain me.
I started to realize that the faith that I had, though it was genuine, was based more on my upbringing and memorizing bible verses than it was based on my personal wrestling with the questions I had already been told the answers to.
In 11th grade, I started reading the bible for the first time on my own, and I started to pray more throughout my days. I began to notice a thirst for knowing more about God that wasn’t there before, and I knew that I wanted to continually seek Him.
The story of life includes various seasons that bring both high hills of productivity, determination, and passionate interest, as well as low valleys of depression, doubt, and failure.
Oftentimes, we get so hung up on our imperfections that it stalls our progression of faith. We think that God will puppet our lives according to how much we pray, how we “feel” about God at the moment, or how much we sin. In thinking this way, we forget that God has called the imperfect to do his perfect Will since the days of Noah. In thinking this way, we deny the full power of God’s Grace over our lives, and we assume that a God willing to die for the world won’t love us as much if we mess up just once.
Noah was a man God called to build the Ark, and once the flood waters subsided, Noah settled in with his family, grew a vineyard, and got drunk….Noah wasn’t perfect. (Genesis 9:20-21 – NRSV)
Abraham was a man named Abram who did not seek God (as best we know) before God called him to be the start of the Nation of Israel. Abraham did not Trust that God would give him a son through his own wife, so he slept with a servant….Abraham wasn’t perfect. (Genesis 16:1-2 – NRSV)
David was called to be the King of Israel, was described, by God, to be a man after God’s own heart. David committed adultery, and then sent the woman’s husband to the front lines of a battle…David Wasn’t perfect. (2 Samuel 11:2-15 – NRSV)
The Apostle Paul, before he was a believer, would hunt down followers of Jesus and persecute them. After he became a believer and was called to be an Apostle, he still did something(s) that he did not wish to do…Paul wasn’t perfect. (1 Cor. 15:9, Romans 7:15-20 – NRSV)
So please, can we, myself included, move past the “I’m not good enough” mentality? God sees us as Men and Women of God – we just have to follow Him.
Passionate Spirituality isn’t about doing all the right things all the time…its about having the desire to move forward, even when your life seems to be telling you to give up. It is not about having faith that never doubts; but having a faith that seeks to grow from having those doubts. Passionate Spirituality is a drive to know God more, love God more, love others more…all while going through our hills and valleys of bliss and despair.
So when we go to Church on Sundays, rejoice in knowing that God loves you, and you have the opportunity to join other believers to Worship and Know God more.
When you see your bible at home, do not see it as a scary book that is only for the “good” people, see it as God’s story of redemption.
When you pray at meals, in the morning, at night…Know that God loves you, and calls you to more than yourself – YOU are a part of His plan for the World.
Passionate Spirituality is a lifestyle centered around knowing God more.
If you want to grow more in your faith, but you do not know where to start – email firstname.lastname@example.org and I will see if I can help. Or comment below!
Why do we go to Church?
What do you do in order to grow closer to God?
What book, chapter, or verse in the bible has been the most meaningful in your life? Why?